Too many scars

Maybe, just maybe I have too many scars for my own sake. Too many scars that come from too many wounds. I only see red flags everywhere and look for the tiniest excuses to let someone go, or to just not getting anywhere close.

I need constant reafirmation of interest, if this doesn't happen I assume -from way too many experiences of my past- that I was perceived as a super weirdo or just as "too much". Yep, I know I'm a bombshell and it's not easy to just "take me in". 

The result is me not trying anywhere near hard to be accepted or loved, and I keep erasing phone numbers and conversations before I end up exploding...